Final Went Well -- Rest of the Day. . .
May. 8th, 2013 11:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
crossover_chickEh, I can't really complain. Most of the day was fine -- like I said, my Spanish final went well. I was prepared for pretty much everything -- may have gotten a few of the true and false questions wrong, but they're only one point apiece, so that's all right. I feel like I nailed all the truly important stuff. I also got my second paper for my Comp II final portfolio edited, so now I just need to combine that, my literary narrative, a bunch of outlines and maybe some typed-up answers to some homework she assigned, and my reflection, and see about submitting it tomorrow. And that'll be it for actual schoolwork -- next comes graduation!
So yeah, the important stuff all went right, I suppose. It's just -- there were some minor things that kind of got me feeling a bit low. I got off to a slow start and thus felt rushed most of the morning; I was only able to sell back ONE of my books, and that for a measely six dollars; Mom had a rough night (car battery died, and her phone went weird and wouldn't ring -- fortunately both problems are now fixed) and some of her stress rubbed off on me; I'm once again missing out on a fanfic update because I'm not feeling particularly inspired at the moment.
And actually, that last ties into something that's been bugging me all day. You see, this fic I'm following, "In Between," updated this morning. "Hooray," says I, and reads the new chapter. It's kind of a sad chapter, and part of it is Victor realizing that he didn't love Emily -- or Victoria, really -- during the whole "Corpse Bride" business, and feeling like an ass because in this version of reality Emily basically gave up everything to save his life from Lord Barkis Bittern. This in itself isn't too bad. I don't QUITE agree with him not being in love -- I see it as more of a "the very beginnings of love" situation, an attraction that never (at least in Emily's case) got a chance to fully blossom, but whatever, that's just my take on the situation.
And then I got to read the reviews, just for the hell of it, and I see this in one of them:
"My personal favorite section is Victor's reflection about the fact that he doesn't really love anyone that much. At least, not as much as they love him. It's so perfect and so telling about a not-so-great aspect of his character, which doesn't seem to get acknowledged much (I've certainly been guilty of skating over it!)."
The bold is mine, and it highlights the part that's been bugging me all damn day. Because I feel like I should agree with that sentiment -- and yet --
It's the wording, I think. Something about the way it's phrased makes it feel like the reviewer believes Victor could NEVER love someone else as much as they love him. Which I'm sure isn't their intention at all, but it's pissing off Forgotten Vows in my head something fierce. And annoying me too, because -- well. I can't believe that Victor didn't care about those girls at all. Perhaps being willing to commit suicide for Emily doesn't count, because he was sort of suicidally depressed anyway over losing Victoria, but shy Victor willingly putting himself at the center of attention and organizing a big party for Emily? That's gotta count for something. And he was willing to take a sword through the guts in defense of Victoria. And in my own fanfics, he's about to dash headlong into a burning building to save Alice. Yes, Victor can be selfish sometimes. And he can be a prat, who says hurtful things without thinking and does stupid things. But you know what? At heart, he's a good guy. At heart, he cares. He feels awful whenever he has a prat moment.
And the way that one bit is worded -- makes him sound like he's nothing BUT a selfish asshole, and I don't think that's the case at all.
Anyway, sorry for rambling. I actually sent a PM to the reviewer asking for clarification on the issue, so hopefully this particular piece of brain-breaking for me will go away soon. I just needed to get that out, I think. If only to get it off FVV's mind. Anyway. Tumblr! And maybe working on some stuff for the website, or the Ultimate Backstory meme.
So yeah, the important stuff all went right, I suppose. It's just -- there were some minor things that kind of got me feeling a bit low. I got off to a slow start and thus felt rushed most of the morning; I was only able to sell back ONE of my books, and that for a measely six dollars; Mom had a rough night (car battery died, and her phone went weird and wouldn't ring -- fortunately both problems are now fixed) and some of her stress rubbed off on me; I'm once again missing out on a fanfic update because I'm not feeling particularly inspired at the moment.
And actually, that last ties into something that's been bugging me all day. You see, this fic I'm following, "In Between," updated this morning. "Hooray," says I, and reads the new chapter. It's kind of a sad chapter, and part of it is Victor realizing that he didn't love Emily -- or Victoria, really -- during the whole "Corpse Bride" business, and feeling like an ass because in this version of reality Emily basically gave up everything to save his life from Lord Barkis Bittern. This in itself isn't too bad. I don't QUITE agree with him not being in love -- I see it as more of a "the very beginnings of love" situation, an attraction that never (at least in Emily's case) got a chance to fully blossom, but whatever, that's just my take on the situation.
And then I got to read the reviews, just for the hell of it, and I see this in one of them:
"My personal favorite section is Victor's reflection about the fact that he doesn't really love anyone that much. At least, not as much as they love him. It's so perfect and so telling about a not-so-great aspect of his character, which doesn't seem to get acknowledged much (I've certainly been guilty of skating over it!)."
The bold is mine, and it highlights the part that's been bugging me all damn day. Because I feel like I should agree with that sentiment -- and yet --
It's the wording, I think. Something about the way it's phrased makes it feel like the reviewer believes Victor could NEVER love someone else as much as they love him. Which I'm sure isn't their intention at all, but it's pissing off Forgotten Vows in my head something fierce. And annoying me too, because -- well. I can't believe that Victor didn't care about those girls at all. Perhaps being willing to commit suicide for Emily doesn't count, because he was sort of suicidally depressed anyway over losing Victoria, but shy Victor willingly putting himself at the center of attention and organizing a big party for Emily? That's gotta count for something. And he was willing to take a sword through the guts in defense of Victoria. And in my own fanfics, he's about to dash headlong into a burning building to save Alice. Yes, Victor can be selfish sometimes. And he can be a prat, who says hurtful things without thinking and does stupid things. But you know what? At heart, he's a good guy. At heart, he cares. He feels awful whenever he has a prat moment.
And the way that one bit is worded -- makes him sound like he's nothing BUT a selfish asshole, and I don't think that's the case at all.
Anyway, sorry for rambling. I actually sent a PM to the reviewer asking for clarification on the issue, so hopefully this particular piece of brain-breaking for me will go away soon. I just needed to get that out, I think. If only to get it off FVV's mind. Anyway. Tumblr! And maybe working on some stuff for the website, or the Ultimate Backstory meme.
